Laptop woes

Well, something is wrong with my laptop and I hate the Dinosaur(desktop), therefore, I haven't been on here. I remember when we got our first desktop, I thought that we were living high on the hog. It's amazing how spoiled we become!

I'm sitting here at the computer desk, which needs cleaned, with the living room window open. It is so nice in here to smell the fresh air and hear the frogs peeping. Yes, Lisa, PEEPING! LOL However, I just looked out the window and guess what I see there? Yes sir. A big fat juicy SPIDER! Ack, now that I could do without. Oh well, you have to take the bad with the good.

Everything has been going good here on the old homefront. Kids are having fun staying outside late. The down side to that is that Abraham didn't get in bed until 10pm tonight. We stayed outside until it started getting dark, then when he came in he had to work on homework, scarf some food down, hit the tub, then the bed. I think when the weather turns beautiful, the kids shouldn't have homework!

I better jump off of here now. I feel my ereader calling me. Fannie Flagg is simply divine!

My baby girl

Well, I had to take my 15 yr old to the Dr. only to have my suspicions confirmed. She has an ulcer. This child is a worrier. She always has been and probably always will be. She just has to learn a way to cope with it and not stress herself out so much. Now, you may think what does a 15 yr old have to worry or stress over? My answer to that is walk a day in her shoes. She wants the best grades. She wants the teachers to love her. She wants to have a ton of friends. She wants to always be picked for whatever she is trying out for. Boys. Gossiping girls. Now these things are just the normal things that cause teen angst. Throw into that mix her uncle John getting ill and passing away 24 hours later a month and a half ago, his son, her cousin passing away from complications due to leukemia, her dad having a massive heart attack, and someone in our family over dosing and almost dying. All of this has occurred in the last 2 years. It's no wonder that child worries so much.

As a parent, I have tried to comfort her. I have gotten harsh with her. I have listened to her. I have done everything I know to do, so why on earth do I feel like such a complete failure as a parent?

Old days are making a comeback at my house!

The Kids are off to school which means I am alone. I love my family but I also like to have some quiet time. I wonder if that makes me a bad mom? So far, I have the laundry in, the floors swept, picked up some. I'm thinking that if I am ever rich, I don't want a maid. It's not bad if you keep the housework done daily. It's when you let it go that it is so hard to catch back up. I hate if it has been let go a couple of days, it's hard for me to get started on it then.

I have had an earache for 2 days now and I'm thinking that I may have to go to the Dr. for it. I think that I will take some Tylenol first.

The quilting project is coming along slowly but surely. I can't wait until it is finished. I love the colors in it. I have decided that I will post a picture of it no matter how many faults it has. That is why it is called handmade. Not many people sew today. I think that it is a lost art. Years ago, people had to sew their own clothes, curtains, etc. They didn't make a quilt just because they wanted the challenge, or for the fun of it. They did it to keep their families warm. When the economy made a turn and people were able to buy things instead of relying on making them is when the art of sewing got lost. I don't believe that is a good thing either. Think of the conversations that happened when a group of women were at a house piecing together a quilt. How many problems were solved over a quilt. I truly believe that we would be better off if we still had things like quilting going on today. You forget your worries and are able to get your mind off of the days events. My suggestion is to pick up a needle and thread and try your hand at making a lap quilt. Who knows, you may just find that you enjoy it as much as I do!

Fed up!

I have things to say and I am tired of being afraid to say them for fear of making someone angry, hurt or upset. I will be blogging regularly again. Facebook just isn't enough for me. I hope that I don't offend anyone but if I do, sorry. There are days that I am happy and days that I am sad and days that I am angry. You will see them all. If you don't like it, don't read it.

I have started teaching myself to quilt. I sewed the top on my machine and am hand quilting. It is taking a long time to do, but I love it. It keeps me busy and helps to take my mind off of my troubles. I will post a picture when I finish it, but that will be a while!

High school has it's up and downs. Alyssa is having stomach problems and has been for about a month now. We have had a very stressful time with my brother in law passing away suddenly. It has been hard for the adults to deal with, much less a 15 yr old girl. She has a Dr. appt. for Wednesday. Hopefully, we will find something out.

Abraham is doing well. Soccer starts back this Saturday. Not actual soccer practice but he will be working with a trainer. I am so excited to be watching soccer again! I love that sport. I really wish that they would have had it around when I was young. I would have definitely played it!

Michael is doing well. Working a lot. When he is off, the days go by so fast that it seems that he hasn't even been home. I guess that is part of being an adult. Sometimes that's not so fun.

Last but not least, me. I have been fine. I am sick of being overweight so I joined Weight Watchers online. I like the program because you eat regular food. It's just about making smart choices. I can still have a slice of cake but that takes daily points away. Why eat a slice of cake, less good food, when I can have all of the sweet juicy fruit that I want? Craziness I tell you! Now I just have to start exercising which is my least favorite thing to do.

Well, I must go fix some lunch now. I will be back and hopefully I have some readers! If not, oh well...

Yes or no?

Thinking about blogging again...

Pain

I wonder if there will ever be a day that I don't think about Michaels heart attack? Feel the pain that I felt those days. The terror of losing my soul mate. Sometimes it's so hard to breathe, like right now. I have to keep it all in because I don't want to tell him, for fear of upsetting him. I have to keep the tears to myself because of the kids. There are moments like right now that I just want to scream and cry because I think that it will take some of the pain away. I can't stand the thought of waking up alone. Not having someone to talk to that understands me. Someone to make me smile when nothing else will. Someone to hold me when I am feeling alone. Go outside and just sit because that makes me happy. Will this ever get any better?

Worry no more!

I'm sitting on my couch, my babies are asleep, my house is cozy and warm, food in my kitchen, wood waiting for the fireplace, and no worries. I mean sure, there are things that I could be worried over. But, I have learned that it only hurts myself and my family if I allow worries to invade me. Now, I'm not talking about things that are out of the ordinary, such as when Abraham had his surgery. I am human and a mommy so of course I am going to worry over things. I am talking about worrying about the state of the world, our countries economy, etc. Things that are out of my control. I guess even to the point of I refuse to worry about if Michael ends up losing his job. We have been married for 15 years now and have been blessed for many more. When we, as the woman of the house, allow ourselves to worry, we cause inner turmoil. As much as we may try to hide it, eventually, worry has its way of creeping out of us into other things. Our kids pick up on our moods more than we realize, no matter what their ages are. So,we are creating a future generation of worriers. If we worry too much, it will cause marital strife because alot of men don't worry about things the same way that us women do. I used to believe that they were just ridiculous by being that way. Over the years though, I have come to realize that me worrying more does nothing to help the situation. There is only one thing that will help us. Talking about it. Now, there are times that you want to talk to your husband, or maybe even a girlfriend. I have done that many times myself. If we would just talk to the Lord about it, and leave our worries at his feet, can you imagine how much better we would be? Not only would it relieve our hearts and minds, but it would also strengthen our relationship with our Lord. So, the next time that troubles have you down, sit down and have a good long talk with someone who listens to us and understands us better than we understand ourselves. It may just work!